As mentioned, all avenues of business are running us ragged right now.
I keep setting little deadlines for myself. In the back of my mind, I hear, “If we just finish _____ by tonight/tomorrow/the end of the week, we can take a nap/shower/day off.”
But then, some sort of mystery illness struck.
I didn’t really notice it, other than feeling really exhausted. But, exhaustion when you’re trying do a million things at once? Doesn’t really set off any warning bells. Then, Josh started to lose his voice, and it became pretty clear that something was slowing us down. Death knell. It’s not exactly like we can take a day off- at least, not right now, in the midst of crazybusytime (the industry term). So, we pressed on, hacking and sniffling our way through.
And then it hit the baby.
While Josh and I can be grown-ups about the whole thing, the baby is sort of a baby about it all (I know, right? Go figure). The slightest bit of sickness turns him into a little whimpering puddle of a child, and all he really wants is his mama and some juice.
This, in combination with sick selves and insane workflow- this right here is the stuff nightmares are made of.
The whole reason I wanted to be home while being a mom is so that I could be here with the tissues and the cuddles and the bowls of soup when Little J isn’t feeling well. Normally, even working from home would allow that- just a tad more inconveniently, as I backburner work for the sake of soup and cartoons.
But this busy, holiday-prep-style work schedule does not allow for sick baby. This is where the stay-at-home-mom and the working-from-home-entrepreneur go head to head. Neither role leaves time for the other. It’s a lose/lose. All you folks who ask about how to balance the two? This is the kind of time when I just cry, “I DON’T KNOWWWW,” and bury my face in a pillow.
It seems easy to talk about juggling work and baby and setting “mandatory pumpkin patch days, tee hee!” but having entire workdays swallowed by caring for a sick child isn’t easy. Ignoring deadlines is really, very difficult. And trying to be both a caring, compassionate mother of a wee sick one while also a productive and punctual business owner is just about impossible.
Ah, guys. I’m not whining- sorry if it sounds that way. I’m torn between painting all day and snuggling a sniffly kid. There are absolutely worse problems in the world. But, you know. Honesty and full-disclosure and all that.
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